As you can see I have a very random blog. It is about nothing in particular. Some things show what I have been through and for me it is important for others who are going through a lot to know that there is someone out there who gets it. I've been to hell and back, have not had the best judgement of character when it has come to my lovers, have dealt with depression, anxiety, an eating disorder and much more. It took me a long time to realize that I had had enough but I came to that realization in the worst possible way. Other things represent who I was, who I am, and who I hope to be, as well as the life I am striving for. It took me until I was 42 to start looking at my life and how I contributed to my own outcomes and why I was attracting certain types of people into my life. I guess it is safe to say I've lived life backwards. Now I am in the process of starting over. My kids are grown up, I'm going back to college, and I've discovered a wonderful sense of peace since making the difficult decision to discontinue contact with people and situations that don't mix well with who I am. I lived a lifetime of toxic relationships and wasted a lot of myself on loving the wrong people. I am not looking for romantic love. I'm still a work in progress, though. I love fine dining, travel, culture, boats, fashion, cats and sarcastic humor. I also feel strongly about equality, the condition of our oceans and helping those who suffer emotionally. I don't take well to those who sit on a high horse throwing judgments especially about things they know nothing about. I admire people who have faced their own darkness and don't live life in denial of who they are as a whole.